Monday, May 28, 2007

After reading my new book...... I kinda get a little deeper onto the thoughts of the author: Murakami...... I think this is the third or the fourth book that I read from his work...... His work is not easy to understand and sometimes the plot defies logic defined in the simplest form....... But I do believe that within the pages of words lies an abyss that hold deeper meaning if you can dwell deep into it........

I am attempting to write like him and see what I can gather from it...... So as to better appreciate his work more than I already did...... Its just gibberish for the next few paragraph, anything that comes to my mind.


"Heaven and Earth", the heavenly taste of the most earthly jasmine twirls around in my mouth. Almost like the TV ads they show on the morbid little box that is devoid of life other than the futile attempt at making what you would define as music.

I do not particularly hate TV but just that it defiles my sanity if I spent too much time on it. Casting away all priorities except staring at the pretty faces within the 24 inches. I have always wonder why its 24 instead of 42. Will anything even change one bit if I inverse those numbers? I highly doubt so.

I am 47 this coming April. Living alone in a place I call the "chicken coop" in a uptown estate while others will usually term it as a studio apartment with a tinge of envy. Why the envy is always beyond my comprehension. Other than the chic factor associated with it, you can barely put anything in the place.

Having sex in the apartment is even tougher than it seems. Sex substitutes love in my life. In my profession, love is a taboo. Even the mention of it disgusts my fellow collegues. I entertains for a living, well, entertain in the loosest form of the word. I am a toy boy, love machine, dreams maker or whatever you prefer to call me. It is an exciting career option when you have the largest toy in town with no other skills to boot. Well, if you will consider thrusting and moaning as a form of skill, then by all means classify me as a skilled labour.

No matter, how you were to categorize me into the tax system of my beloved country, I will not file for 401(k). I earn a meager pay and I cannot afford to pay a higher tax even if I feel like it. Other than sex, I love tending to my garden placed illegally and conveniently in my neighbours yard. If you think about it, sex and gardening is pretty much the same. They all need tender loving and care to be great.

Missing any of those element, it will degenerate into something ugly, dark and sinister. How ugly, dark and sinister is beyond words found in the dictionary. A vortex that suck up life. A quicksand that absorbs life. A blackhole with nothing in it.

The clock ticks ever so loudly in the hall. Like an ax hacking into a piece of dense wood in a mechanical fashion. Staring at the longer hand reminds me that the time is almost up. I picked up my robe and head straight into the shower. Washing the battle scars through the years of battling life itself. While others heads into the battle donning the protective armour glittering like a mermaid's scale, I took off mine.

When I step out of my shower, a wad of bills found on the topside of the bed. My battle's a victory but another step nearer to losing the war.


Hahaha..... If you have survived till now and understand what Im writing..... Congrats..... You can prolly watch X-Files and conclude that Bart Simpson is gay...... Oh well...... I think I sorta understand Murakami now....... Its quite fun just writing the strangest stuff...... The fun belongs to the author and the agony belongs to the reader......

:P

Labels: The First Piece To Glory

posted at 28.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 27, 2007

"Time Traveler's Wife" is good...... Very good read....... Its kinda sad at the end...... But beautiful...... :)

8.5/10......

Bought "The Elephant Vanishes" by Haruki Murakami...... I think its a composition of several short stories...... Felt quite cheated because the first chapter is exactly the same as another in his other book...... Sighh..... My money vanishes......

Tried to get the book which Saz intro-ed....... Couldnt get it anywhere...... I think I will need to try the bigger book stores like Borders or Kino...... I think I will try PageOne too..... Since Im always there everyday now.......

Week 3/10...... Here we go again.......

Labels: My Money Vanishes

posted at 27.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, May 24, 2007

I have an old friend...... Together in the same class back in Primary school...... Played together, went to his house, hang out and the usuals...... We again came to the same Secondary school......
Didnt really hang out anymore....... Sorta became into a hi-bye kinda thing........

All of a sudden after a gazillion year....... He suddenly called me up....... I am really surprise to receive the call and started catching up....... The conversation was really genuine, catching the lost times and all.......

5 minutes later, he proposed to meet up and Im cool with it...... He asked about my current status and I mentioned that Im on internship and stuff...... I reciprocrate with the same question and he replied with some hesitation that he is now a Financial Consultant.......

So much for the catching up hur....... I kinda resent the fact that there was a motive behind the catching up....... And all along I thought it was a great idea to just chill out together at some coffee joint....... Bahhhh........ I sorta decline the offer politely, trying very hard to come up with some really good excuse that will not seem like Im avoiding him like a plague or something.......

After that call which happened about a month ago...... He called periodically trying to fix some dates....... I kept using work and school as an excuse........ Sighhh, I mention that my girl friend's mum is an excellent financial consultant but I guess he didnt take the hint.......

The bottomline is that you do not abuse your relationship like that....... You don't just called up any Tom, Dick or Harry on your phone list because you have a sales pitch to make....... Its really sad.......

I can easily think up of some reasons to shoot him in the face....... I didnt really wanna do that because of the old friendship....... First off, Im no sucker...... Im a pauper man...... LOL..... I believed that Im still quite savvy about such stuff...... Even if I am overestimating myself, Ive got Nat's mum and a close buddy in the same line for advice....... Gather my social circle, pick a stone, blindfold yourself and throw that stone....... The stone have a freakin high chance of hitting someone that major in finance and is already investing in some way or another........

Im a freakin Chinese...... Guan Xi matters....... I will want to deal with someone whom I am comfortable with...... Not someone who calls you up only when they have a need to fulfill.......

Labels: Old Friend~

posted at 24.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Woott...... Its darn blardy challenging...... My team consists of 12 peepz...... 4 based in New York, 4 based in London, 1 in Hong Kong, 1 in India and 2 in Singapore....... LOL......
Meetings are held through Tele conferencing at 10.30pm........
Shaggg...... A result of globalization hur hur...... Reminds me of Joseph Stiglitz and Bhagwati......

Doing a small component on a mega huge project....... More specifically handling the equities from Pacific region...... Dealing on the data quality...... Im having a difficult time....... But its really alot of learning........ Thrown into a live project...... Really hope I could deliver........

My supervisor in HK suggests that I do a presentation to the global team at the end of the internship...... Bahhh...... Ive done lotsa presentations....... But not remotely through tele conferencing...... LOL...... Presenting to some Tow Kay in New York....... Bahhh...... The stakes are high......

I get sleepy real early this days...... I always hop onto bed at around 11pm....... Any later than that, I will feel quite grouchy in the morning........ Oh well...... Im sleepy already....... Cheerios........ *Yawnz*

Labels: Internship~

posted at 22.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 20, 2007

Honeymoon is over...... Gonna hit the grind starting from tomorrow.......
Urrgghh..... Hope I can do what they throw at me......
The week had been fun..... The trainings and workshops had been quite helpful.....
Some interns are quite fun to be with but some are kinda ahem...... Oh well..... Its not as if we are going to be best buds anyway.......

Had a very good weekend..... Achieving quite a good work-life balance......
I just cannot wait to end my FYP....... So that I can officially relax...... Urghh.....

Im a FYP Hater..... Its a pain in the arse...... Bahhhh.....

Labels: FYP Sucks~

posted at 20.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, May 14, 2007

A darn cool first day at work.....
Free breakfast...... And together with 20++ managements.....
Free lunch at Spizza...... Again with managements.......

Alot of speeches from different directors...... That will be the schedule of the first 2 days.....
Wed and Thurs will be at Carlton Hotel learning about Presentation Skills and Business Communications......
LOL...... Sounds like Comm 101 all over again......

Friday will be an outdoor event....... They still dont wanna tell us and wanna keep it a surprise.....
Thats gonna be my first week at work....... OMG....... I must say Im impress.......
Even though I know that this is just honeymoon and all...... But the gesture and efforts put in says alot about the corporate culture........

My supervisor is based in Hong Kong and so I prolly wont see her in Singapore..... Spoke to her on the phone for 15 mins this afternoon...... She seem kinda cool and nice....... I mention that I will be on exchange in Hong Kong and she invited for a visit in the corporate office in Hong Kong...... Cool beans......

I think I cant talk about my jobscope...... But its kinda cool...... Hope it doesnt get too tough and technical.......

Off to bed, folks...... Its a 7am morning everyday.......

Labels: 7am~

posted at 14.5.07 _________________________________________________________________

A darn cool first day at work.....
Free breakfast...... And together with 20++ managements.....
Free lunch at Spizza...... Again with managements.......

Alot of speeches from different directors...... That will be the schedule of the first 2 days.....
Wed and Thurs will be at Carlton Hotel learning about Presentation Skills and Business Communications......
LOL...... Sounds like Comm 101 all over again......

Friday will be an outdoor event....... They still dont wanna tell us and wanna keep it a surprise.....
Thats gonna be my first week at work....... OMG....... I must say Im impress.......
Even though I know that this is just honeymoon and all...... But the gesture and efforts put in says alot about the corporate culture........

My supervisor is based in Hong Kong and so I prolly wont see her in Singapore..... Spoke to her on the phone for 15 mins this afternoon...... She seem kinda cool and nice....... I mention that I will be on exchange in Hong Kong and she invited for a visit in the corporate office in Hong Kong...... Cool beans......

I think I cant talk about my jobscope...... But its kinda cool...... Hope it doesnt get too tough and technical.......

Off to bed, folks...... Its a 7am morning everyday.......

Labels: 7am~

posted at 14.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 13, 2007

Just watched "Flags Of Our Fathers"...... Its darn brilliant....... Very very nice....... Not the typical war flick...... Theres more meaning to it than just war violence....... Charging me up for the "Letters From Iwo Jima"...... The Japanese side of things...... Maybe they will show what happened to Iggy...... *Slurp*

8.5/10......

Finished "Fast Food Nation"....... Very different from "Super Size Me"....... Its more holistic in terms of coverage....... Enlightening read......

8/10........

Spend a really meaningful day on Friday...... Sent Nat off to Beijing in the morning together with Aunty(Nat's Mum)....... Rotted at home in the afternoon before visiting my dad in hospital in the late evening...... Bro drove us to Giant together with Mum and Da Sao...... LOL..... After mum stopped working, I got to talk to her more...... I taught her the correct way to play Sudoku earlier..... LOL...... Its nice actually and I know that behind the strong facade of hers, all she wanted is to just talk to her kids.......

I LOVE YOU, Mummy, Always..... Happy Mother's Day......

Labels: Mummy's Boy

posted at 13.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, May 10, 2007

"Man is distinguished from all other creatures by the faculty of laughter."
Joseph Addison (1672 - 1719), The Spectator, September 26, 1712

"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter."
e e cummings (1894 - 1962)

Some quotes on laughter..... The one activity that human beings tend to forget at times...... Such a pity...... We take ourselves so seriously and am always so wary about how others think of us that we kill the child in us.......

Life is already so tough...... Why make it tougher?? Be a child again...... :)

Life's short..... Play hard...... :)

Labels: Laughter~

posted at 10.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Friday, May 04, 2007

11 Episodes of "One Litre Of Tears"....... A very touching and motivating movie.......
The last few episodes were simply moving....... My threshold kinda break in episode 8 and 11 when I start sniffing in my mucus and my eyes getting bleary...... LOL.....

But its a seriously darn blardy good drama...... Teaches us some of the basic life principles that we sometimes take for granted....... Gotta really praise the cast for bringing the characters to life...... Especially the female lead.......

The fighting spirit of Aya is simply amazing....... We've got so much to learn from her....... Rest In Peace, Aya......

"One Litre Of Tears", 9.8/10.......

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posted at 4.5.07 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, May 03, 2007

Wooottt...... Heroes is darn good thus far...... Every episode seems to twist the entire plot...... The time travelling mechanism makes it real interesting........ Its kinda like one of the fantastic RPG game we played back in the old days; "Chrono Trigger"........

LOL....... Old school hur hur...... :P

Heroes 20 is really something....... In one episode, I got shocked quite a few times...... LOL...... Jessica still as hot in the future....... Everyone seems to acquire some battle scars cept Jessica...... Oh well, the ladies always seem to look as good in the shows...... No matter where and what, they always look good and dress well....... Thats so unrealistic.........

Reading "Fast Food Nations"...... Very interesting...... :)

Labels: Heroes

posted at 3.5.07 _________________________________________________________________