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Sunday, August 29, 2004

I miss my pals in Thailand. After chatting with Golf, the fond memories had came back to me once again. Getting pissed drunk over there was a daily occurance. Lol...... Listening to "In The End" and jumped together with a Johnie Walker Black or Red Label in hand. Lol...... Sounds liked some compulsive drinker but hell its god damn fun back then.

Its really great to hear from Golf that everyones doing fine. Times really flies. Golf already 26 this year. I remembered i was just a mere 19 young prick back then and now i am already 22 but still a lame prick. Lol........ Somethings never changed hur hur..........

I will definitely make a trip back to Bangkok this year. I really miss the time there.
Bom Neh Nong Pai Prateh Thai. (Hope i didnt get it wrong)

Golf, Kwang, Ming, Phai, Kop and Golf hot sister...... hehe....... Sorry for forgetting the name. You guys and gals simply the best.

posted at 29.8.04 _________________________________________________________________

Geekout....... I would not say its bored and i would not say its fun. Maybe clubbing just not for me anymore. Or maybe i just could not clubbed liked how i used to last time. But the crapping session about the old school drama serials after the clubbing was fun. Lol...... I just could not imagined we had discussions of Yan Fei, Long Ting Guang and various actors and actresses. Omg....... We are so old school.

Chatted till dawn even after we reached home. Lol....... We just had endless topics to chat about. Lets welcome the Drama Mama peepz, Anna, Jiahui, Hui Ying, LN, Zhi Hong and Ed. *Standing ovation*....... Lol...........

---------- Blurry ----------

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

This pain you give to me
you take it all
you take it all away...
explain again to me
you take it all away
explain again to me
take it all away
explain again

---------- Blurry ----------

Coolzzz........

posted at 29.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, August 28, 2004

Mixed emotions hur hur. Just came back from camp and its truely gonna be my last visit there till some four years later. Joy that i finally reclaimed back my long lost freedom, sad that im gonna missed my army pals that went through thick and thin together. Sob~ Sob~

Though Army could be real sucky at times but ultimately i had learned alot from it too. Values that couldnt be taught in school had been imparted to me within this couple of years. Hope peepz thats enlisting soon would go in with a positive manner and make the best out of it.

Below are the list of peepz that had helped me in one way or another and i will always be grateful to you guys. May we meet again. Cheerios Buds.......

Gryphon Coy platoon 2, especially section 2. Woot..... You guys rocks......

Sispec Charlie Coy Platoon 1, Section 1. Without each other support back then. I dont think anyone of us could have survive the hellish time under Azren. I will never forget the 3 months we had each other. Lol........ Respect the slopes guys.

Sispec Golf Platoon 2, Section 1.

Gryphon Coy Instructors. Especially bunk mates. Though common folks always had this belief that we are living in comfort and always "tekaning" peepz but deep down only ourselves know what we are going through. This one year plus had been great fun and i really appreciate you guys. Thanks for everything, my buddies.........

All my ex recruits. I hoped you guys had a great time under me which im sure you did. *Grinz* All the best in whatever you do and hang in there. ORD will befall you before you even know it.

Civilian World........ Here i come........

posted at 28.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Friday, August 27, 2004

Woot....... Had a good jog, completed BGS individual assignment and a bowl of fabulous mutton soup for supper at Adam's.

Moving out of LN's apartment next week and i am seriously gonna missed this place. It had really been great fun staying with LN and Anna. Late nights supper, EPL sessions and occasional heart to heart chats with each other had been real great fun. Other than the fact that we lived near school was a locality kinda plus point. But the opportunity to stay at LN's gave me the experience of hall life which SMU do not offer. Mugging together till late nights then head down to Adam's for supper seems to be our favourites. We supported each other in terms of studies and even personal problems. Wakaka....... All the skeletons made known to each other. I particularly enjoyed our chatting sessions alot. We always touched on intriguing and a diversify spectrum of issues in life. The fact that we guys could clicked extremely well made things real easier to stay together. No conflicts, i repeat NO CONFLICTS occured among the three of us. Lol...... Its kinda achivement as i deemed it or perhaps miracle as we all came from different walks of life and had very diverse characters. And also the fact thats Anna a gal. Lol....... Anna probably changed my perception of living with a gal was cumbersome. Wakaka....... At least she dont hogged the wash room. :p

Bah....... Gonna be awake darn early for a morning class and probably reached home at around night if CCAs ended late once i move back. Thats gonna SUCKS big time. Sigh~ Adjusting would takes time and i predict im gonna be notorious for being late and enjoy that infamy then.

Oh well, not forgetting Sally. Lol....... I seems to love her now. *Tears welling up*
Im gonna miss you, Sally........ And also the tadpoles filled pond in the garden. Best wishes to them and hoped they would enjoyed longevity and dont ends up as dinner for someone or something.

Finally, this entry also served as a tribute to LN's aunt for the generous offer.
A big thank you from Ray ya........


posted at 27.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, August 26, 2004

*Yawn....... Just got back from NTU. Luckily Marcus drove me back or i would have no freaking idea how much the cab fare would cost. Somehow i still felt quite distant from the team. I guessed perhaps i am a rather new addition into the team. Hopefully, i would gel in faster than i hope.

---------- Hot Babe Up For Grab ----------

Alright ladies and gentleman. Due to the special request of a sweet lady seated beside me and i shall grant her request. She is none other than the SMU hottest babe. Anna Vanessa Haotanto, the irresistable lass who turned heads, caused road accident and oogling guys crashing into the lamp post. She is now single and readily available at your nearest 24 hours grocery store. Oooooh, Her hour glass figure, sparkling eyes, lengthy legs simply fried even the coolest man on earth. Gays turned straight after with merely a glance of her. Straight gals turned butch after meeting her. Impotent peepz get a hard on upon her gracious presence. She's the greatest thing alive on this cosmic world. Anyone interested for a date with her, please drop me an email and i will send you a application form.

Thank you for your participation.


posted at 26.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, August 23, 2004

Woot....... Magnificent Arsenal comeback. One of the most exciting match i ever witnessed in years. This match truely showed the spirit of a true champion.

HAIL THE CHAMPION OF ENGLAND.......... Arsenal

posted at 23.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, August 22, 2004

Arrrgghhhh....... Im feeling the heat from only the first week of school. Whoever says that SMU is slack can kiss my ass. Im only doing the bare mininum and could feel the tremendous strain. Just imagined those extreme first class honours wannabe.

AS chapter 1, BGS chapter 3 and 4 on top of that i still need to do research on the IS debate topic. Wakakaka......... Now i know why Bro always worked late till the wee hours during his four years NTU stint and also how Sis felt when she was still an undergrad.

My brain cells are slowly deteriorating. Will i become schizophrenic?? I seriously think so at the rate im going. Maybe someday i could not even formulate a simple math question or argue that the sun rises from the east.

Wahahaha....... Just another nonsense entry from me as im taking a five minutes break from the mentally taxing reading of the stupid thick AS text. All thanks to all my Prof...... Prof, I love you guys.........

posted at 22.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, August 21, 2004

---------- She Will Be Loved ----------

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her

She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehowI want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved

---------- She Will Be Loved ----------

Woot....... Some twisted love in the MTV.

posted at 21.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Friday, August 20, 2004

Why am i so wierd.
Im helluva complicated person.
I do not understand myself at times.

Perhaps i am going bonkers.
I am loony.
Something unwired up there.

Perhaps i am losing it.
Will i take control of my life back?
Will I??

Why am i writing like this.
Is it my sub conscious instigating it?
I guess i am just blabbering gibberish.

A wierd entry hur hur.
I do not know why i write this.
But i just write it anyway.

Signing off from a queer guy.
Ciaoz mates.
Cheerios dude.

posted at 20.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Arrgghhhh........... I am just another lost sheep in the class of IS seminar. Note that i use the word "Another". Wakakaka...... At least i could take consolation in it.

I always felt im in control until today.......
Bah......

Gonna mugged now......
Ciaoz.......

posted at 18.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Arrrgghhh...... Im blogging beside yet another avid blogger. She damn cranky and crazy yet her blog exude style. Wakaka.......

Just went for the first badminton training and am suffering from the aftermath of it. Aching like hell all over. Some three years or so since i last held a badminton racket and i sincerely thought i could not play for nuts. Its just like filming a "Wu Xia Xiao Shuo" when im playing, the shuttle kept landing on the metal frame of my racket producing the "King King Kiang Kiang". Gradually, i got my strokes back a little after playing a few games and some so familiar footwork. It really reminds me back to the good old days of hellish badminton training session. Lets just pray that i could get back my old form in a few weeks time.

Just skimmed through the lecture notes for tomorrow classes and i thought the Prof mistook it for some Greek language course. I could not understand those diagrams and stuff in there even though i do have some basic knowledge of IS. Bah...... Godspeed.

Gonna head down for supper with LN,Jiahui and Anna at Adam's.
Ciaoz.....

posted at 17.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, August 16, 2004

Woot...... Just finished my first class after two years odd in the military. "Business, Government and Society", one of the core module in the syllabus. Its quite a different experiences over here. The classes more interactive and the Prof's stance rather passive and acts as a facilitator for the fourty plus students in the seminar room. The interactions in the class really got me thinking deeper into the subject...... Way cool.

Lot of gray patches in Biz module as well. No definite correct or wrong answer. Coming up next later in the day would be "Analytical Thinking". Gotta run else late for classes.

Ciaoz....... Oooh, by the way the first Prof quite cool and is a German. :>

posted at 16.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Friday, August 13, 2004

Pow Wow had ended....... It was not bad. Met new people and had fun during this three days. The most memorable moments would be the "Night Walk". It was basically a haunted house setup that was so realistic. I went into it with Peishi, Lydia, Sandy, Zixuan and Marvyn. Upon entering the area, the gals simply went amok. My arms almost got ruptured out by the gals especially Peishi and Lydia. Lol...... One on the my left arm and the other on my right. Though the setting and atmosphere was eerily perfect but it didnt really worked on me as i took it quite light heartedly and made jokes throughout. It was really really impressive. The effort put in to create the atmosphere was tremendous and the effect was ten fold. "Night Walk" really rocks.

LMAO, 81 and 82 won the "Float Competition" which i seriously believed the result rigged. There were so many teams far better than ours which really put our "Apple On Flames" or "Trash In Incinerator" to shame. The only special segment of our performance would be the vivacious drag queens and our BIMBOTIC cheer. Lol....... Either the judges gay or blind. Thats that...... $120 NYDC voucher hur hur......

Many thanks to Peishi(Facilitator), Sandy, Lydia, Eunice, Aisha, Alexandra, Zi Xuan, Eugene, Edwin, Marvyn for making Pow Wow such a wonderful camp.

Tomorrow would be the Convocation which truly marks the start of the journey in SMU. Woot..... SMU here i come.

------------ Bimbo Cheer (Probably Aids Us In Winning) ------------

Like "Duh", For Sure, I've Even Got A Manicure
The Sun, I Sweat, Is Bitching Up My Hair
Red, Green, Yellow, Blue
I Don't Know Which Team I Am In
I Don't Know, I Don't Care, How Should I Do My Hair
Go, Go, Fight, Fight
Gee, I Hope I Look Alright

81, 82, We Are The Sex Bomb

------------ Bimbo Cheer (Probably Aids Us In Winning) ------------

posted at 13.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Woot......

Moved over to LN's place in Bukit Timah and having a great time. A mere ten minutes stroll would take me to the campus. Many food haven near the place too.

IS camp and Vivace over. Tomorrow would be starting of the Pow Wow camp till Friday. Hope its gonna be real fun.

Till Friday then.

posted at 10.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, August 08, 2004

Hmm...... Back from Sports Camp. But too shag out to blog. Lol.......

Real shag after that competitive running. Arrrgghhhh........ Shag.

ZZZzzzzZZZZZ.........

posted at 8.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, August 05, 2004

Done my clearance after two days of hunting peepz down throughout the island. Was real lucky that everything was just so smooth sailing. Woot...... Pink IC loh......

S.W.E.A.T gonna owned me till the end of the week. Judging by the packing list, i figured it would be real physical and mental demanding. Really looking forward to the camp tomorrow as well as the academic briefing in the morning to elucidate on the course programmes.

Hut hut hut...... Bring It On, S.W.E.A.T....... Waste me if ya can.......

posted at 5.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Arrrggghhhh......... Im so goddamn busy all of a sudden. Events packing this whole week to the brim. Im seriously lacking of sleep. Its Kiat's birthday today and gonna be a celebration in ChinaBlack for his 22th. Calvin just returned from Aussy and called for a gathering on Thurs evening. And on Fri onwards would be the Sports camp,IS camp,Vivace,Pow Wow and Convo. Arrrgghhhh....... Shaggedelic. I still haven started my clearance. Arrggghhh.......

Met my OG for Pow Wow yesterday in campus. They seems like great and fun loving peepz to me. Played those usual ice breaking games in one of the seminar room and once again im the odd one out as the Polytechnic guy. Most of them from the top 5 J's....... Intimidating hur hur....... After a "Know Each Other" session, we proceeded to Marche for our dinner. Had Sirloin and blabbered everything under the sun during the dinner. Oh, someone actually said Michelle and me looked alike. I seriously doubt the person not myopic as Michelle looked great. A gal would be hideous looking if she looked like me. Lol, Try picturing me in a wig. So i have Xiang Run as a Bro and Michelle as a Sis. Woot, both of them looked great and im flattered.

After dinner, we proceed to a open space opposite Istana to chill. One by one gave a another short intro about oneself. One of the OGL teased me by asking "XXXXX wanna know whether your attach". Its considered a teasing as she only asked me after a handful of guys went up on "stage". Im like shocked by the question and hesitated before answering "No". Paulo was going "got chance liaoz, got chance liaoz" and then Peishi shot out "he hesitated when answering so he must be attached". Gosh, gals really sensitive when come to this kinda of thingy. Haha....... Im not attached yah, grabbed me GALS if your blind or desperate that is. But still im flattered by the question. *Head got real big*

After some nonsensical crapping session, Carrie suggested pool and im gamed along with Michelle, Jacky, Crystaline, Marvin and Eleyn(Typo i guessed, Sorry). Played several games and we headed back home as Carrie a Cinderella, lol. Shared a cab with the Eastern peepz and took off.

Seems like my Wacko OGL and OG gamed for a great deal of fun during Vivace and Pow Wow. Woot..... Looking forward to it.

Gonna note down the names of the peepz as i may really forget about it. Here goes,

OGL: Peishi(My OGL, you rocks), Shui Lian, Carol, Paulo
My OG: Lydia, Min, Zi Xuan, Eunice, Eugene, Sandy, Edwin, Marvin, Aisha.
82-84: Carrie, Jacky, Eleyn, Michelle, Wei Shan, Zi Qin, Clavence.

And many others i haven know yet........ Give it to me yah, Pow Wow........ Woot.

Gotta head back to camp for clearance. Cya......

posted at 4.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Hmm....... Whats with my BMT mates?? Haha...... One by one took turns to wake me up from my beauty sleep. This time was from Woon Tat playing a prank on me and i fell into it, Arggghh.
Those chimps from my bunk really pals from hell. Haha, no wonder we all could clicked so well. I seriously gonna missed those army buddies once i officially disrupt.

Meeting my Pow Wow OG group later in the evening in the campus. Hope they would be darn outgoing and fun. It would be dreadful to waste the Orientation Camp with zombies. And if the rumour about the grouping true then today really gonna be some big day. May the force be with me, godspeed.

Yesterday stayover quite alright. Bitching throughout the night. I have sinned again. Bahahaha.
But seriously i figured peepz probably bitched about us on the Oasis portal too. hehe.......
Jogging before heading to school to stay and look fresh as im liked darn stone and haggard looking now.

Ciaoz.......

posted at 3.8.04 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, August 02, 2004

Arrrgghhhh........ blast Raymond for waking me up so early(8am) in such a superb weather for sleeping just by asking "Ni Zhai Na Li". Haha...... Raymond thought i was in camp and wanted to find the "Gryphon" pals for a chat. Hes in the island for IPC for his men thats gonna be enlisting real soon though i thought its a little late for IPC when we gonna like ORD in 4 months time. Crappy Army......

The Sun, the sand and the sea. Woot. Even though the sun went into retreat, the sand got real wet, sticky and the sea's murky do not deterred us from having all the fun in this cosmic universe. With the right peepz like Ed,Anna,Jiahui,LN(too bad Dan and Alvin gotta leave early), the Sentosa beach can also be comparable to the Mauis, Tahiti, Redang or what have you.

Took some time to meet up with LN and his pals as we figured where in the world they were. Took this little train thingy to the Tanjong beach and it was real hilarious when we reached our destination but the driver didnt stop instead making a turn towards where we were minutes ago. Anxiety struck as we might jolly well be just hitching some joy ride for sight seeing till someone gestured for the driver to stop. Lol.......

Played beach soccer with an incredulous team with Anna,Jiahui poaching goals upfront, Ed and me manipulating the game from mid and LN as the last hurdle to being scored. Lol...... Its always a sight when i see Gals playing soccer. Hey im no sexist but its darn hilarious seeing them running wherever the ball went. At least i would say Anna and Jiahui aint that bad though. Probably Hwa Chong soccer did quite well for Anna and Man United hot blokes did for Jiahui(Oh not forgetting cute Kawaguchi, wahahaha)

Anna and Jiahui then laze around the beach for a tan when the sun probably flirting behind the clouds. Lol...... Alright bite me, Anna and Jiahui. The guys then went for a game of volley. We sucked at it. Haha. You dont called soccer players to play volley, do you?? hehe..... Went back to kick some balls instead. Anna joined us back for the game and Jiahui still trying to perfect her tan.

Swimming in the open sea doesnt seems that bad afterall hur hur. Tasting some salt for a change and all of us went swimming. Swimming and chatting concurrently in the deep green sea. Ronaldo darn cute, not the Brazilian but the dog thats sharing the sea with us with its owner. Jiahui got a snap with the dog but i didnt...... Not fair, arrrgghhhh.

Washed up and off to dinner at this glass house place. The architecture real real coolz and i really liked it alot. Had seafood platter for two and started chomping on it right away. Had a great "talking cock" session before and after our meal. Lol...... I have sinned. Forgive me whoever up there. I will not ill speak again. Sinda thingy hur hur. LMAO....... Omg, im at it again. That topic cracks me till my tears welling. Alright i shall pass.

Had a great great meal and day. "Tian Xiao Mei You Bu Shang De Yan Xi" and off we went to home sweet home. Enjoyed myself alot and we gonna be having fun again at Anna's this evening...... Woot..... You peepz really turned me on. Woot, i loved fun lovers.

Oops, one more note. No more "Sotong" for 2 weeks. *Cringed at the sight of "Sotong"*
Lol....... Ciaoz......

posted at 2.8.04 _________________________________________________________________
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