Monday, May 31, 2004

Wholly great Monday morning wtih the weather looking bright and also not being in camp helped contributing to the great feeling. Would be heading down to Dylan's house for the making of the presentation on the Sch 2IC retirement function.

Yesterday wasnt that fun on the Island Of Fun. Befriended two more new pals and they seems great to me. Karen and Alvin were the peeps. Did not really do much over there though. Took some photos using Sis Digi Cam and wishes to upload it onto the blog. But i havent figured it how to yet without having my own server to host it. ????? Expecting some answers from the Blog support crews. :>

Would ask Sebas to help me find out more about disruption later on as he had much more contacts over at the HQ department. Hopefully, some light would be shed on whether i could or could not disrupt this year so that i have more time to prepare for it.

Shower then over to Dylan's.
Till next week then........
posted at 31.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, May 29, 2004

Just had a normal and leisure 4km route march this morning. I was the rear scout during the march and it started off just like any other marches. Everything was fine until we had the first hiccup which was the Red Flag that everyone had so miraculously missed out. I had to rush back to the Coy line and fetch it. The march resumed and about near the midway point, an ache occured in my empty stomach. I tried to endure the pain and hopefully at the midway point i could sneak a five minutes to purge out those bio waste. As hard as i tried, i failed miserably to supress the gradually increasing churning of my stomach. I bashed into a secluded spot and released as nature calls. After some serious business was done, i realised i had no proper cleaning tools out in the wild and had to substitute with CB leaves. Sigh~~~ A route march gone awfully wrong.

Had not registered with good and happy news in recent times. Finally, one had arrived so timely. SMU had offered me a place and i might very well disrupt my national service for my studies this July/August. I wasnt actually pinning much hopes for SMU after that interview which i deemed screwed but eventually i guessed it was my essay that pulled me up. Still had not received from NTU or NUS. And therefore i am still quite undecisive about things. Shall wait and see how things go then.

Off to dreamland......
Ciaoz.....
posted at 29.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, May 24, 2004

Back from the ordeal...... The essay was still passable or so i thought. The topic goes something like "No person is ever right and if so he is not a human being". Wrote lotsa of crap in it and on a few occasions almost wrote out of topic but managed to steer it back though.

I guessed i screwed up the interview but not too badly i hope. Wasnt nervous in the least but the words coming out from my mouth just doesnt seems approriate. The professor does not looked impressed by our group. The questions asked by them were exactly what Andrea told me but i just didnt prepare them.

So another few more weeks of waiting for confirmation. Confirmation of my future.....
Booking in early evening to sort out the details for tomorrow range. And before that would make a trip down to San's to pick up a new book. Finished "Brethren" on Sat. Very creative plot but once again John Grisham left the ending much to the readers imagination.

So till next week bloggie.......
posted at 24.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 23, 2004

Woohoo...... Had a great day yeah..... Had great deal of fun kayaking and basking in the bright sun at the tiny island of Sentosa. It was a last decision though, wasnt very keen on going at first with fatique still clinging on from yesterday COS duty. But i guessed it wasnt a bad decision afterall.

Bought lotsa stuff for tomorrow big day. Hope that i could make an impression on those Dean that would be scrutinizing me throughout the ordeal. Preparation for the ordeal were brief for me. Found out more about the University background and thats about it.

Dont wanna pinned too much hopes on this year admission already. Future hanging on the balance...... Sucky.

May the force be with me. Would update again on how things are going.
Ciaoz.....
posted at 23.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 16, 2004

The scorching weather really a bother. Felt real tired yet couldnt get a sleep without sticky feeling all over my body.

Started on another John Grisham novel today, Brethren. Read a few pages of it and already got hooked on.

Booking in this evening at 8pm with the guys. Till then would be "Brethren" on my agenda.
Back to the book then.
Till next week bloggie..........

posted at 16.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, May 15, 2004

Troy...... One of the best show ever watched this year. Its comparable to Braveheart, an all time favourite anytime anywhere. As with any massive scale warfare film, the rallying speeches from the leaders never fail to impress me.

Two quotes especially from Troy captures my attention.

Agamemnon: Lets keep the wolf in the hills and women on our beds.

The Old Guy With Curly Locks(Bah, Cant remember the name) : It is my honour to lead you. The ship of the underworld have come to take us. But i say, lets keep them waiting for a little longer.

Quotes from war film always inspired me. The best are still from Braveheart.......
Forgotten some of them. Will digged up the net for it though.
Lets Roll......

posted at 15.5.04 _________________________________________________________________

Bah....... The imperial edict from the NTU/NUS have not reached. One more week of grace time before i proclaimed my hopes dashed. However, SMU shortlisted me for an interview on the 24th of May. Would go for it and see whats happened next.

Finished a novel "The Summons" by John Grisham barely minutes ago. A great novel that spurred me to rent and read all his other works. The ending was a little disapointing though. Not really much of an ending but just left the story hanging there of some sort.
:<

Chill and logged........

posted at 15.5.04 _________________________________________________________________

-------- I Miss You --------

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head

-------- I Miss You --------

It Rocks....... Dark Gothic Love huh huh........ Hehe.......
Love it......
posted at 15.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 09, 2004

Finished yet another novel, The Sky Is Falling. A fiction novel that have a fair load of adventures, suspense and action. Quite a page turner i would say. Finished it within a day. Had the intention of purchasing the membership at Sans. Been reading at quite an alarming pace and to have a membership would do just fine. Would give a good thought before deciding.

Happy Mother's Day, Mummy. Sis not in the country again and Bro in Nippon. Left me as the only offspring around in the household. I would love to bring Mom and Dad out for a nice dinner. Just too bad im broke. *Chuckles. Its really time to repay the debts to our parents. Probably once Bro back, the three of us could planned something on every occassions worth eating out at a nice cool posh restaurant. I'll be in charge of the eating though and Bro Sis could take care of the finances. Muahahaha....... evil........

Been hitting quite a patch lately. Hope the sacred letter carrying the holy emblem of NTU or NUS comes knocking on my postbox to turn the tide. :)

Till next week then.............
posted at 9.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, May 08, 2004

Hmm........ Chang Hao, Xiu Jun, Feng had gotten letter from the Uni. Darn........ When will be my turn?? The anxiety gotten into me already. Though the site stated the notices would be given till the end of may but the feeling of uncertainty looming upon my mind made me sick. As the days goes by without any notices received, my hopes of getting into Uni gradually diminish. I guessed i just hate waiting for things to happen. I wanna make things happened.

Finished 'Desert Flower' during the Guard Comm duty. Not that much of an insight provided but nonetheless an entertaining book. Would go rent another new book today at San.

Through yesterday discussion on the TBTL, learned some Latin phrases. It sounds cool and sophisticated. Would do some research on this Latino thingy.

Semper Fi - The motto of the United States Marine Corp. Latin for always faithful. Faithful to god, country, family and the corps. "Once a marine, Always a marine". Cool huh.......

Odi Et Amo - Of Love and Hate........

Hehe, would find out more yah.......
Logged.........
posted at 8.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, May 04, 2004

So finally it has ended. Between Ash and me. A real pity.

Jab

The process of going through really felt liked a jab. You knew the pain was always gonna be there. You always knew. Hesitation and indecision sets in causing apprehension, agony and suffering. As the sharp menacing needle of love approached the ever so vulnerable heart, the fear gotten so real. You hold back, trying to explore any other possibilities of salvaging the spreading disease when you already knew there aint. Self deluding. Once again the needle gotten real close and there it was. Everything is over, ended, vanished, gone, destroyed. The agony and pain suffered from the illness would gradually recover. The swell appeared after the jab. The pain never felt so real before. Though it eliminates the disease, the pain of the jab was there to stay.

We always knew this would gonna be the best remedy for us. And i really hoped i made the right decision. A decision i wont regret. I would still regard Ash as my soulmate and i wish her all the best.

Sadest May 03 2004...............
posted at 4.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, May 02, 2004

Hey im one lucky guy in the universe to have great friends that would tide someone through by going the extra mile.

Flying back from Manila, date with the other half, giving up sleep even though shes gotta wake up early, all the jet lag and stuff doesnt deter this great friend of mine from showing concern to a old pal. She made a trip down to my flat just to provide a pair of listening ears. Im really grateful for all these and appreciated for what Joyee did. And also to Herman for walking through and fro a great deal of distance just to reach out to me.

Im really really grateful for what you guys did. I will always remember this deed and will always cherish these unbelievable friends. Thanks Joyee and Herman.......... Thank you so much............

:>


posted at 2.5.04 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, May 01, 2004

Sigh~~~

Never in my life had i ever need to think so hard for a decision. A decision thats seems so hard to commit.

One that would inevitable caused pain and suffering.
One that might alleviate the pain or even eliminate the agony and sufferings.
One that you might regret it throughout the end of time.

I need an answer.
An answer thats so profoundly missing even if its just staring right into your face.

Logged...........

posted at 1.5.04 _________________________________________________________________