Wednesday, March 30, 2005

When inferior complexity comes over you......... You think of a hundred ways to fail but not even a single way to succeed........ Sigh~~~ Its always been the case........ Suck big time......... Gosh....... Feel like a wimp......... And always in this kinda matter.........

Maybe i should just purge all those thoughts outta my mind and attempt to stay the way i am........ Be satisfied and move on......... But is that what i really want........ I could not figured........ Just another wimpish shit that cant pursue his own happiness.........

Big fat loser huh........ Maybe a better deal might just come in my way......... What are the chances huh........ Nil........ Bahhhh..........

Fuck my own fickleness..........
posted at 30.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Dedicated to Team Ripple Effect........ My beloved family.......

Im tearing as i looked back through the 13 weeks of LTB.......... The final presentation video which Luke has so wonderfully made really touched my heart......... God damn it........ I swear its the song........ Gosh, i haven teared in a while............ *Suck mucus back*.........

(Still sobbing badly at this point) Disclaimer: Im a sensitive guy but not a wimp

This whole journey was walked through the companions of some really wonderful characters. Yvonne, Luke, Shermaine, Bai Xin, Yi Ling, Elgin and Krupa.......... This has been by far the most fulfilling module i have ever did throughout my education..........

The hard work we have so religiously put in was really summed up in the video. So many wonderful weekends we have spent together......... Work do not feel like work when im having so much fun with ya guys........... Its all shown in the clock......... The clock dont tick when im with ya guys......... The clock just cheekily wind.........

Our synergy really soar during this phase of time.......... From complete strangers to one that i can trust and relied on......... You guys really kick ass......... Really thanks to Yvonne for introducing us to Sundac.......... It open a whole new perspective in my life.......... I gotta know "Motor-man", "Recorder" for a change instead of Sally, Mary and Kelly........... (Hehe, Im crapping here about the gals and my sobbing had stopped)

I seriously hope that our friendship will not end here......... And hopefully it will last a life time......... We do not have time capsule, we do not have hand bands for everyone......... But what we have is full of love and hope........ And that new friends were found that would go the distance............

Love ya guys...........

Regards Impish Ray and proud fraternity member of Team Ripple Effect............
Love ya lots............
posted at 29.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, March 27, 2005

Finally able to cast the learning journal aside......... One of the most sickening assignment in Semester 2........ What a stark constrast to what the module itself got to offer......... Im really glad that im in such a wonderful team.........

Finished reading "Rain Maker" as well....... Its a good read....... And an enjoyable one as well when you get the notion of the good triumph over the evil......... The ending was neither good nor bad for Baylor....... He lost the money but got the girl........

9/10 for this one..........

Gonna read "The Tarot" which i picked up at Book Link. A real bargain....... Just a dollar....... Hope the book good........

Not my usual self lately......... Drained by work, by thoughts??? No freakin idea..........
Ray going bonkers huh......... When im alone probably.......... Embroiled back in the cipher exercises huh.......... Probably i have solved the ultimate cipher......... Good or bad........
Fiction or Non........ Ray could not solved the cipher until certain facts are ascertain.........

Lets see how it goes..........
posted at 27.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Thursday, March 24, 2005

My mind's in a swirl...... Or rather liked a pendulum......... Left right, left right.......... Thoughts kinda jumbled up......... Sigh~~~ Why am i always so fickle......... It kinda happen all the times........ I haven changed one bit all this years huh..........

Maybe i should just let it go.......... And let it flow down the meander.......... Wherever it lands me...........

Im halfway through "Rain Maker".......... Grisham's got me hooked once again.......... Lol...... Its nice......... Im proscratinating on my work just to flip on to the next chapter.......... Arrrrggghhhh....... Thats bad....... Real bad...........

I hate writing that lame Learning Journal......... Its like so fake......... I actually cocked up some shit so that i could referenced from my text......... Gosh........ What kinda journal requires you to reference some shit ass text......... Thats crap............

Tonnes of work and yet im procrastinating them........ Arrrrggghhhh......... I so badly need my break........ Arrrrggghhhh........ Gotta hold out for another few more weeks.......... Then "whammmm"......... Im gonna have helluva time.......... Reading, watching that box full of anime, jogging, chilling with friends, catching up with my levelling, travelling........... I swear i could almost see it coming.......... But not without barging through that barrage of papers..........

Hold out.......... Peace with me..........
Begone, Poofffff............
posted at 24.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Had a great day down in Sundac.......... Supervised them on their gardening, chatted with them and observed them........... Alas, some good trainers Ive seen this time....... Jude and Shiva......... I could tell that they really care about the clients........ They knew them inside out and does their work really well......... Glad that the clients are in good hands..........

I kinda fell into a trance while i was in the drawing room......... The soothing music and my sleepiness might have attribute to it......... Lotsa emotions overwhelmed me........ Its a very queer sensation......... I floated literally..........

I guessed i would try to volunteer down at the center more during the holidays.......... The "motor-man", "recorder" and alot more are really interesting personalities......... Hope its not just a sudden thought.........

"Mmmmmm Mmmmmmm".....................
posted at 22.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Monday, March 21, 2005

"Thanks To Andy For The EFFECT, Lol"
posted at 21.3.05 _________________________________________________________________

"Photo Shop Rocksss"
posted at 21.3.05 _________________________________________________________________

"Sketch Like" effect rocks......
posted at 21.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, March 19, 2005

Finished "Stupid White Man"......... Lol.......... Its kinda hilarious......... Very informative as well but i kinda take it with a pinch of salt.......... Michael Moore really hate Bush to the core......... Lol........ Bush flamed to hell in the book......... A good laugh ensured......... Try it...........

Personal favourite in the book;
"Armed with the truth and the ingredients of an decent omelette"

Back on Grisham once again........ "Rain Maker"............ Not bad so far......... Just started though therefore no comments as yet............

Crunch Time..........

Already in burning hell.......... Slogged like an ox for the hellish agenda.......... Meals would be my only salvation in between work......... Sleep deprived......... Pillow never seems so fluffy before......... Multiple orgasm when the weary mind and body lay in the comfort of the mattress........ Drop dead status within seconds............. Awaken within seconds as well for a brand new hectic day of meeting deadlines.............

Death knell rung........ How does it sound anyway........ See below for answer..........

Week 13 - "Deadlines" - Line You Up With Death

Tuesday - LTB final presentation, Port folio
Wednesday - OOS presentation??? OOS report???
Thursday - Comms presentation, Comms report
Friday - TWC presentation, TWC report

Resurrection scheduled on Week 16................ See ya then...........
posted at 19.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Saturday, March 12, 2005

Wooooo............ The moment i mistook Bra's msn for Cheryl's really means something man........ Lol........ I kinda high on alcohol........ The usual kinda drinks at Wala Wala......... And its also at the place where i experienced my greatest irony in my life......... The very person whom probably had thwart my previous relationship is the very person whom i toast to merrily tonight.......... Wooot........... What irony...........

Anyway i had a great night once again thanks to Gan, LN and Ben......... The highlight of the night probably is the "Hor Fun"......... Gosh.......... Its like an imperial delicacy........... I swear its the best "Hor Fun" i ever tasted.......... Lol...........

LN kinda left halfway through the night as his Bro hospitalised because of some kidney problems.......... I wished LN's bro a speedy recovery.......... Need any help my Bro and i would be there faster than any paramedic would get to you...........

Cheerios All..............
posted at 12.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Alright........ Its not the usual "woot" this time.......... Reason being that the expectation hyped up during the read of "The Rule Of Four" only goes to heighten the degree of disappointment........
The ending kinda goes out of steam.......... Still a good read anytime though........

8.5/10........... Go get it from any nearby stores yah...........
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0385337116/102-6037107-3126563?v=glance

Hypnerotomachia Poliphili hur hur...........

Got Michael Moore this time......... "Stupid White Man".......... Anticipating a hilarious and cynical style this time..........
posted at 8.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Sunday, March 06, 2005

Woooootttt......... Reached the climax of "The Rule Of Four".......... Gosh~~~ The slow culminating buildup just goes to intensify the climax......... Its worth it.........

Im usually more intriqued by how the riddles and puzzles are solved......... But im attracted to the story of Colonna this time.......... The historical facts on the Renaissance, the birth of many greats in Florence.......... The Renaissance period kinda attractive............

The discipline of Art in the book kinda interesting too........... Especially the painting about the notion of "Love Conquers All"......... Wooott........ Kick Ass stuff.........
The idea of the geometry of love struck me too...........
Two quotes kinda captivate me;

"The Tongue Of Desire Is Forked, Kissing Two But Loving One"

The other was the quote in Colonna's last breath before succumbing to the "Bonfire Of Vanities"

"Inde ferunt. totidem qui vivere debeat annos, corpore de patrio parvum phoenica renasi"

A little phoenix is aborn anew from the father's body, fated to live the same number of years...........
posted at 6.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Friday, March 04, 2005

This entry is very much under the influence of Stella Atois, Heineken and Kilkenny..........
It 4.11am now and i had just came back from a very good night from Siam Supper Club..........

Im right in between a state of sobriety and drowsiness........ Between a state of dream and reality.......... Downed liked around 8 - 10 mugs of alcohol............ Its creating helluva havok in the creation of this particular entry........... Ive gotta retyped a statement liked twenty times to make sure it sounds like English and not Greek.......... Head's heavy as tonnes........ Mind kinda retard........... Banging onto frames of bed and clumsily dropping shorts into toilet bowl........

I had a great night........ Merit to Gan......... Gotta knew some great guys and really some attractive ladies like Stella and Annie if i could actually remembered their names........... I gotta chance to know Gan at a more personal level......... A cool guy........... Too bad LN couldnt made it......... I think it would even been a greater night then...........

With so much fatal attraction and i wasnt any moved by it........ Have i turned gay overnight......... Had there been any gal which i actually gave a seriously thought about........... Its kinda hard to give a solution to that imminent question.......... The former is a certain No No......... The latter is one which i could not denied............ Deep down in the labyrinth of my thoughts is one unsolvable maze..............

Maybe a profound cipher could solve this mystery............. Till date, even i could not decipher the ultimate puzzle.........

As She Has Leave Emitting Yours, Whose Next?????
posted at 4.3.05 _________________________________________________________________ Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Woot........ SG during the weekend was darn good......... Pitting against 6 Days 7 Nights and Blood Angels......... This is the first time that i ever played a game and felt fulfilling.......... I never felt such a strong sense of belonging in a guild of the virtual world......... Wooootttt......... Such sensations.........

I kinda hooked to two objects of affection nowadays....... Malteezer and "The Rule Of Four"........... Gosh...... Ive been popping in and out of the pharmarcy store so many freakin million times buying a packet of Malteezer till the sales gal kinda recognizes me......... Its really yummy....... Pop one little chocolate coated ball in your mouth and you cant stop wanting for more..........

The other is even more irresistible........ A book titled "The Rule Of Four" by Dustin Thomason and Ian Caldwell.......... Eve advocated for the book and when i had the slightest hint that the style would be similar to that of Dan Brown's......... I rushed down to the book store and bought it.........

Its darn addictive........ Salivating at the next after i finished one chapter........... It just had that kinda effect on me.......... Though a wee bit more scholarly than what i hoped but a little research could do me by........... Scholarly in the sense of some terms used like Lutheran,Dominician......... Im not sure whether this book catching on but i would try my very best to advocate this for a Dan Brown fanatic anytime...........

How about Dante for a change hur........... *Grinz*
Lasciate Ogne Speranza, Voi Ch'intrate
posted at 1.3.05 _________________________________________________________________