Tuesday, May 04, 2004

So finally it has ended. Between Ash and me. A real pity.

Jab

The process of going through really felt liked a jab. You knew the pain was always gonna be there. You always knew. Hesitation and indecision sets in causing apprehension, agony and suffering. As the sharp menacing needle of love approached the ever so vulnerable heart, the fear gotten so real. You hold back, trying to explore any other possibilities of salvaging the spreading disease when you already knew there aint. Self deluding. Once again the needle gotten real close and there it was. Everything is over, ended, vanished, gone, destroyed. The agony and pain suffered from the illness would gradually recover. The swell appeared after the jab. The pain never felt so real before. Though it eliminates the disease, the pain of the jab was there to stay.

We always knew this would gonna be the best remedy for us. And i really hoped i made the right decision. A decision i wont regret. I would still regard Ash as my soulmate and i wish her all the best.

Sadest May 03 2004...............
posted at 4.5.04 _________________________________________________________________